new year resolution.

I've made new year resolutions all these years, never carrying to fulfilment anyone of them. From wanting to be loved by everyone, to wanting to be loved by friends, to just wanting people I can truly call my friends. I keep lowering my expectations, but yet, not once any of these come to fulfilment.

This time, I'm not gonna lower my expectations.
I'm gonna stop praying to ask God to let me win.

This time, Lord, I'd ask of You to just make it so that I don't cry when I lose.